But here's the clincher that grabbed me this morning, verse 9: “...forever separated from the Lord...” In my prayer time yesterday morning, this reminder overwhelmed me. First, it reminded me of what it felt like before coming to Christ and just sensing that something is missing from my life. Second, was what it feels like to walk away from Christ. Again, a sense that something is missing - a terrible void attempting to fill with chaos. Third, feeling abandoned by the Lord in your darkest hour. I've lived through all three, but the last was perhaps the worst, and its reminder rattled me.
There is so much fear and torment in a place where Jesus is not. Outside of Him, that is all anyone can expect to experience. While my bouts ranged from minutes to sometimes hours, it was enough to confirm to me I NEVER WANTED TO BE WITHOUT Him - especially for eternity.
Last night before bed, I was thinking about how the Lord always comes up in my conversation. It's not to get a religious jab in at anyone or to make sure I can create a way to witness. It is because Jesus is a person in my life just as my husband or children are. He is a very real presence who leads, guides, protects, and comforts. Just as I can't help but mention my hubby or kiddos, I can't help but mention Him. He provides rest and assurance in my world and He is worth mentioning.
And there absolutely IS REST in Christ if we just look to Him in all things (see verse 7.) Trust the Grace that allows us to grow in our faith, desire to have a love for others grow, and ask for the rest God promises (see Hebrews 4:1-13.)