Last night I began heading for bed and I realized the candles had already been put out. A candle lid on this one, a votive bottom on another, and so on. It occurred to me, one of my daughters had snuffed the candles, and done it in a similar manner I would have. This may not be a huge deal. But it was a huge confirmation for me and the thoughts I had been having for several days.
All weekend I had been contemplating the idea of what I will be leaving behind for my children. What memories will be made? What impact will my decisions have on them? How far will that impact go? Will it affect their children, or even their children's children? These thoughts are not exactly new for me, I have had them in the forefront of my mind for a couple years now.
I know these thoughts stem from the series of events that first began with the passing of my husband's grandmother, then my own, followed by my aunt and then a string of strange events I myself experienced, which caused me to physically feel as though I was facing death myself. Within the past year, my best friend lost her father, and another friend, her husband. Most recently my other grandmother passed, as well as an all to young cousin. All these events reminding me that my life here on Earth is not forever and we never know when it is time to move on. However, the impact, or legacy I leave - WILL. Wouldn't you know? This morning I came across this very moving video from Fellowship Bible Church, which captures where my mind has been settled the past several days. Have a quick watch...
The quote from the video really speaks to me. Specifically the parts about creating legacies without our knowledge and making memories absent mindedly. It is my desire and prayer to be intentional in even the smallest of things, like snuffing out candles, as well as the weighty matters in life - learning to balance our spiritual, relational and physical self. I hope the way I speak, the way I act, and the way I make others feel, is all from a place of genuine Love and pointing them to one Person. I hope I am living a life that will leave a loving legacy.
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