March is here! The old saying says, “March comes in like a lion and out like a lamb.” Well, I guess that may be true. The past couple of days have had me on a bit of a ride. I feel like I am ALWAYS on a bit of a ride! Ha!
Last week I had a spot on my arm removed. It has been bothering me for quite some time now, and I actually had it frozen off several months back. Well, it returned. My family doc sent it off for biopsy last week and Thursday I learned it came back positive for basal cell carcinoma (nonmelanoma skin cancer). I was quite shocked at first. However, after some research and educating myself, I have come to learn this is the most curable and manageable form of skin cancer and I fully trust all will be well. I go in tomorrow morning to have a few other spots looked at, and possibly removed for testing as well. I am praying and believing these spots are nothing.
The past few days have sent me on a very introspective journey. It has had me questioning how fully I actually trust the Lord with ALL things in my life. It has had me being more present with my husband and daughters. It has sparked a desire in me to live even more fully according to God’s will for my life and to trust Him 100%. It has also had me feeling a bit discouraged and disappointed, I must admit.
Discouragement and disappointment definitely manifest in a very physical way in my body. I have been very tired, weak and achy – almost like I am coming down with a cold (maybe I am). This is definitely something I need to give to God, this sense of having the wind completely removed from my sails when challenges present themselves. In fact, God spoke to my heart regarding this very thing during this morning’s message (part two of The Revival of the Righteous). I need to give it to Him, and continue to move forward, rather than looking back in hopes of finding comfort in past lifestyles or standing still, due to paralysis resulting from fear of the unknown. He knows what lies ahead and He has my entire future in the palm of His hand.
I cannot help but believe God’s urging to have me fast social media was in-line with the information I was about to receive. For seven days leading up to the unsettling information, I had been social media free. Already, I had come to appreciate and value the undivided attention I was able to give my husband and kiddos. Already, I was able to be more sensitive to the guidance of the Lord. I also sincerely appreciated the phone conversations and face-to-face time with those closest to me, which reminded me I do have deep connections with others. I am SO grateful!
There is no doubt in my mind I need to continue on the whole journey I embarked on six months ago. I need to continue to eat healthy, whole, God-made foods. I need to continue to exercise and physically take care of my body with a balance of strength, cardio and deep breathing exercises. Most importantly, I need to continue my daily devotions and FIT power hour with the Lord on a daily basis. I need to keep moving forward and trust God. Some of the goals I had for myself may change, and that is ok. If God as other plans, I would rather live those out, than the limited ones I came up with for myself. After all, that is where true strength and power come from, smack dab in the middle of God’s will for my life.
Here's to a great March!
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