constantly wondering – creates stress, which could also be the culprit for much of what I experienced and have been experiencing.
In an effort to understand what is going on with me, I took a trip back in time last week. I could pinpoint certain stressful events dating back to 2001 that occurred and were directly related to some sort of episode where I experienced an increase in very specific (often neurological disturbances) symptoms. Stress definitely appears to have a very physical impact on my body. My challenge is to create the best environment possible for myself, to minimize or even eliminate the impact stress has on me.
It’s funny. The book I have been reading has been tying into this very subject. How one’s thoughts and state of mind control their actions in so many ways. How one must take captive those thoughts not reflecting what one knows to be true, and good, and right – and focus one’s thoughts on what is true, pure, lovely and admirable. But what about when things aren’t “good”, and they are “bad”, just ignore it? Just place your head in the sand? NO. Look for the good in the situation. There is positive to learn from EVERY situation. There is something to be grateful for in each scenario appearing to be “bad”.
This is where I spent much of my time reflecting yesterday. What is the good that coming from the “scare” I had last week? It confirms my decision to become more physically healthy and whole. It compels me to make better nutrition decisions, incorporate supplements my body seems to need right now, and to move in a way that brings overall well-being. What is the good coming from the trial experiencing on the home front? It causes me to consider my actions and thought processes around the issues. After all, I can only control my actions – NEVER those of another. It has caused me to seek after new insights and approaches, which have in fact presented themselves. It has inspired me to be more honest with myself and others, rather than bottle things up which later become problematic.
As I write this, I see these challenges as providing an avenue for me to meet the goals I have of becoming a more complete and whole person – spirit, soul and body, in Christ. Without the resistance, I may have never met, or perhaps prolonged the growth I have the potential to experience from all of this. Perhaps this is God’s way of answering my prayer and providing the desires of my heart?
Whatever it may be, I am grateful.
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