I tried desperately to get it to stop wigging out....I tried disabling the touch screen, I rebooted it (this is not ALWAYS applicable ;-) )...nothing. Coincidentally, my husband came home around the time my computer was not cooperating and he attempted to help fix it. Still nothing. Then we realized, the kids were in bed and we actually had an opportunity to TALK. You know, that thing people do sometimes when all of life's distractions aren't getting in the way. When the kiddos are down for the night. Just talk. In retrospect, I'm beginning to think God may have had a little something to do with the computer shenanigans...
We went over the events of the weekend, his accomplishments during a race he had finished, catching up, spending time together. Yesterday, it continued on. We carried on like we were dating, it was rather odd - for us, where we have been, right now. But nice. It was something we both needed. Our girls were even happy we were talking, rather than spending our every minute directly focused on them. They sensed we needed this too. We all went out as a family together. Gearing up for Sunday football, well, at least some of it. My husband decided to take the girls and I to a movie I had been wanting to see, and sacrificed his time with his favorite team. May sound silly, but it was a big deal to me.
I sat through "The Song" and loved every minute of it. It was thought provoking, emotional, and spiritual - all in one. While it was based on various truths around Solomon's life, it was still a work of fiction, but one that communicates the heart of God for those who become ensnared by addiction and things in our lives that potentially blind us from seeing the very blessings God has placed in our lives for His purposes. It was a timely movie, for me, for my husband - for us. I won't share anymore other than there are moments in life when you simply cannot deny God has been softening your heart, preparing you to receive something He really needs you to accept. That is how I feel about this experience. A light was shown on some very important areas in our lives together and we BOTH simultaneously saw and acknowledged them.
Just the day before, I had expressed to my best friend that I needed a definitive direction regarding some decisions I needed to make. It was both a prayer and a declaration. God heard me, and quickly answered. Having the inconvenience of my computer break down was perhaps the best thing that happened all weekend. Sure I still have to sit down and plan everything out, but the small detour leading to healing and restoration, was well worth it. Not only worth it, but necessary in order for my journey to continue on in a way that is pleasing to God, and brings a sense of peace to me.
Have a great day!
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