Weighed in yesterday, and I’m down another 2.6 pounds! Based on the scale I have, I also gained muscle, so I can assume this is primarily fat loss. This coincides with my husband’s opinion that I look and feel different. I will take my four week pictures next week, to see a side by side comparison and determine if I am truly experiencing a composition change.
Last week I felt so much better. I was primarily low carb every day, with the exception of Saturday, when I cycled up. I had a rest day on Friday, and ended up having a rest day on Sunday. My husband and I went out of town for a concert, and I just did not get it worked in before we left. I also ate off plan Sunday, which had me a bit nervous about the weigh-in. BUT – it felt awesome to get away with my hubby and cut loose a bit. It had been a while since we done so, and we both really needed it. So I don’t regret it one bit.
Amongst our new dining experience, music, laughter and just acting like teenagers again, we talked some about my goals. He is fully supportive of the path I’m on, and agrees that as long as it does not interfere with my focus on my calling (God, him, and our daughters) to keep moving forward. However, we both agree working toward a July date may be bit aggressive, and it might be best to shoot for September. I am going to discuss this with my coach today and see what she says, but I’m thinking it is what fits best right now.
God has been speaking to me loud and clear about the fact that there will be challenges. I think I was prone to believing that once I became a believer walking in obedience to God’s Word the best I could, everything would suddenly become peaches and cream, and I would get to walk into eternity unscathed by the tribulations others experience. This is simply not the case. Between the book “Relentless”, my local church, and a teaching from a church I follow in New York – God has opened my eyes to the fact that He builds character in us while we go through the storm, and causes us to rely more on Him than ever. Everything I will ever go through may have been designed to ruin me, but He has the will and power to serve His purposes. I love this! It helps me to see obstacles in a whole new light and in a way sort of gives me the confidence that I will be more resilient when future challenges do come my way.
Speaking of resilience, I am going to begin a new book in a day or so, titled “The Think Lean Method: The Whole-brain Guide to Get Lean for Life”. I had skimmed through Joe Manganiello’s book while hanging out with the kiddos this past weekend, and read about how once he changed his mindset so many things begin falling into place with his physical fitness. My coach has said this many times. Instantly I was reminded of the Scripture stating, “…do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, so that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.” I expect to discover that renewing of the mind (both in Scripture and from clinical data proving the connection between thought patterns) is directly linked to change and the ability to experience new outcomes. But we’ll see.
On a side note, things are pretty intense right now between family, work and my daughters’ recreational activities, so I may not be posting as much. Sure it only takes a sec here or sec there, but sometimes I just need to be fully present all the time – there is peace there. I hope everyone is doing well!
Scheduled rest day today, which means I have a moment to update the blog…
Last week was pretty eventful. I checked in with my coach on Wednesday and had a good amount of weight loss coming from fat, as I had gained muscle. She made some tweaks in hopes of having another “good” week, and they just did not sit well with my body and I had a difficult time keeping my nutrition 100% clean. I felt sluggish and just “off”. Friday rolled around and I ended up having a minor panic attack, while headed to have my stitches removed from my excision sites. It really just came up out of nowhere, as I was not concerned with anything and I felt really good having just had lunch with my girlfriend.
Fortunately, I was able to talk with my husband and he sort of “talked me down” if you will while I was driving, and the symptoms subsided. When having the stitches removed, I asked my doc about it. I explained to her that I have really been feeling great, taking everything with stride, and didn’t understand. To which she said was classic panic disorder. I strongly dislike the word disorder, and asked why the label. Of course she said it is because it isn’t normal, but that it is manageable and they have meds for it. She knows I loathe medication, so she wasn’t surprised when I said “no thank you”. She agreed that my need for answers and questioning everything probably didn’t help matters, and I told her that I guess I just need to look at it like getting the hiccups – or gas – it is something that happens from time to time, you ride it out, and then move on with life as normal. She said “pretty much”, and laughed.
With the new perspective I carried on with my day, went for a nice walk with my hubby and dogs, and continued on with my nutrition and workout regimen for the week. I still felt crummy and just down right “not with it”. This was reflected in this week’s check in, by basically having a plateau week. So, back to the first week’s plan, because apparently daily carb cycling does not agree with my chemistry. Three days back into a daily low-carb plan, and I am already feeling much better. Yay!
Hmmmm….insightful, please explain. This life, this journey, is mine – no one else’s. God gave it to me to live out and for His good purposes. He knew when He created me, the challenges I would face that were out of my control (trust me, there have been many since the time I was a baby). He knew the character “flaws” those circumstances would scar within me, and promised to never leave my side as He worked them out for His glory. The road He has me on, is right where I belong. Loving Him, loving my husband, raising my children, and to the best of my ability, loving others as He calls me to. Sure I am enthusiastic about holistic wellness (I believe He created that passion in me as well), and becoming whole in spirit, soul and body, but the enthusiasm never trumps my first, second and third loves – God, my husband and my kiddos. Do others need to agree with or even understand this? No, not really. I answer for my life when it comes to an end here on earth, no one else will. I always become more keenly aware of this when I have an episode where it feels like death is imminent.
first, meeting the needs of my husband, and being there for my children, as well as giving my best in my career – and that is going to look different in my life, when compared to any other individual. And it isn’t going to be done “perfect” (according to mine or others’ standards). And it’s OK. Every day I have the opportunity to embrace my life, right where I am and allow God to lead me through it. Every day I have the opportunity to be content with who I am, what I have and where I live – RIGHT NOW. Every day I am allowed to be set apart more for His glory.
OK so that got deep…whew! We are just three weeks out form the Spartan – aroo! I am really looking forward to knocking this goal out with my husband! Who I also get to get away this weekend with – much needed! I’m ten weeks from the show I would like to attend, but not 100% it is going to happen; more to come on that one. My kiddos are doing well and thriving, and we encourage one another more now, than it seems like we ever have. Perhaps that is because they are older and are learning through their own challenges.
I hope you are well, have a great weekend!
Great news! Results came back NORMAL and I am basal cell carcinoma free. The events of last week were a test to some new revelations God had shared with me through various sources, the days leading up to the news. Isn’t that just like the enemy? Moving in swiftly to snatch any truth the Lord places on one’s heart.
I had just finished up John Bevere’s book, Relenteless. A great resource expanding the understanding of what Grace is and what it could and should look like in one’s life. I was pumped, stoked, and emotionally charged with a drive to be relentless in my relationship with the Lord and ready to see Him move mountains in my life. Tuesday, after my appointment for my severe cold and before my appointment where it received the “bad news”, I was laying on my couch in my living room and I sensed I needed to pray. I did, and God met me there. So many personal things were brought to light and many things involving others I care deeply for. I felt different at the end of this time with God.
When I got the news Wednesday, I recalled that moment and immediately felt peace. However, as time went on and I picked up on the doc’s concern, I began to become fearful. The mind is a tricky thing. It can cause one to believe so many things, based on previous experiences or just unconscious conditioning from the world around us. I traveled too far down the path of the worst possible outcomes, when I was reminded of God’s promises. I then went down the path of faith, grabbed hold, and decided that was the outcome God really had for me! A few days later, and this is exactly the outcome!
This life is a long distance obstacle course. There are so many challenges that come up as one moves along at the pace God sets. I think this is why I am drawn to obstacle course races. They reflect life – but only in a shorter period of time. Regardless of the distance there is satisfaction knowing each obstacle was met with courage and a determination to keep moving forward towards the finish line. Now it’s on to a running stretch, until the next obstacle presents itself.
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