Months went by and my episodes persisted on a near daily basis, taking me out of my career for a few months - they were crippling. Doctors had no answers, research overwhelmed me. I'd try to block them out and focus on a competition, with no luck. When I began to deal with things and look to God, things began getting better. Episodes went from near daily to sporadic, and about one or two per month. Then from month to month, to every once in a while, with the entire phenomenon lasting about two years.
When I hiked up a mountain in Seattle, while visiting my trainer-turned-ah-mazing friend @chellefit, something shifted within. Marriage still in turmoil, I began focusing one ME - getting strong again, began a blog, and set out to compete - again - but this time WITH God.
As I looked for folks who knew it was important to combine faith, fitness and food, I came across @kimdolanleto I'd seen her in @oxygenmagazine as a fitness model and had always admired her physique and the hard work she put in for it. But now! Now she was sharing a book RIGHT UP MY ALLEY. She was now inspiring me on a different level.
The first year of the blog my hubby and I grew stronger, competing in a sprint and super @spartanrace together, earning a place in @strongfitness magazines digital training guide. Reflecting our renewed commitment to one another, no matter what. My shift from self and circumstances, to God, our family and others, seemed to be curing my "ill".
When I met @amandalatona last November during our first group challenge, and following #TeamAmanda training, she shared her heart with me about God, loving her husband, and relying on grace to move through whatever platform He gives us. She was another I admired from Oxygen magazine. In fact, during my two years of paralyzing episodes, all I could do was pin images of inspiration of where i hoped to be one day, because I physically couldn't train at the time. Amanda was a huge source of inspiration.
This past year, it's like God took ALL this and blessed me with a confidence in Him like I'd never known. My peace comes from Him. My guidance comes from Him. My love for Him, compels me to love others and KEEP GOING. And He's doing so much. So this is the result of a four year inner transformation, one I wouldn't trade for the world!
2017 is the year I'd like to see the physical, match what's on the outside. But if not, I'm perfectly fine with the healthy-complete-in-Christ 155 pounds, 37% body fat seen here. I pray this blesses someone, today, and encourages you to NOT GIVE UP. Keep looking forward, allow Love in, and be strengthened ❤ There's more to be written in YOUR story.....
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